February 29, 2008 by jonpease
Enfield’s Say Goodnight Gracie was my one true perfect dog. I had loved her ever since she was born in my kitchen, she was mine and I was hers. She was smart, beautiful and had a wonderful personality. I was so in love with her, I wanted to speed her development along, so I sent her to a professional trainer in Canada when she was only 10 months old. I had dreams of handling her to new heights in our breed. She was going to be a polished field dog and a great show dog. Dreams of madison square garden filled my stupid head. Well, she never returned home from Canada, She never achieved any of those meaningless things I was dreaming of. She never again got to be in my arms. She still however has a meaningful relationship with me. She is in my heart. The day she died, my life changed for ever. Quickly and I mean quickly my earthly life fell apart. My former partners brought a crippling law suit against me trying to prevent me from earning a living. I was not even intending on taking anything or anyone from them, I just wanted to be free. I lost all my money, I lost all my status, I was deceived and I was angry. I turned to looking for Gracie, and in the process I found Jesus. I had not known him before, I had always believed, but I did not know him. And I fear, he did not know me. I found him and began to know him because of Gracie. God used my love for Gracie to give me a nudge. And I have been seeking God and understanding, since that day. God also gave me a new charge, A charge that is not for me, but for him. Through dark days and what you may think, are awful circumstances, but I don’t. God has had my back. Worry has left me, and I now only have 1 hour left of contractual bondage and freedom is in my grasp. I go back to work in the morning, after quite a long time in the penalty box. God will help me to do what God wants me to do. And my business may or may not be successful, I guess that depends on what God thinks of it. I’m going to listen to him. Follow his charge and we will see where it goes. I sure it will be a great ride. Freedom is here again for me and I feel liberated. Of course, I have felt liberated ever since that day I was looking for Gracie and found my Lord. Thank you Jesus and thank you Gracie.